When was the last time you had portraits taken of yourself?
For me, like most people, it was on my wedding day in 2005. Yes – that’s about 8 years ago. Why is it that we feel we will go ALL OUT for professional photos on the ‘best day of our lives’ but then continue on with our lives without repeating the experience?
Let me tell you, deciding to have my photos taken professionally was the BEST decision I’ve made – since marrying my lovely man Ian! Leading up to the photography session, I felt excited and (strangely) not at all nervous. I knew I was having my hair done by a stylist and my makeup done by a professional makeup artist, and there were a few items in my wardrobe I could bring along. pretty clothes that hadn’t been worn for a long time. And having seen many beautiful portraits of curvy women shaped just like me I was confident that I would be very happy with the photos.
My lovely photographer friend Nadia Marlow did my photoshoot, and today I returned to her studio to see the images and when I saw the first one….I started to cry! I had to wave the tears away. I hadn’t expected to have such an emotional response. It was because when I looked at the first image, I saw a beautiful, very familiar face and saw that it was ME! When I look in the mirror, I often see myself in an idealised form, which is why there’s often a shock when I see myself in photos – like the ones my five year old has taken with my phone camera from rather unflattering angles.
On the day of the shoot, there were people fussing over me, and it felt wonderful. I’m so not used to be the centre of attention. And positive attention, at that. Afterwards I walked on air – for several days! That same week I walked into a clothes shop and bought a whole new wardrobe – not kidding. The first time I’ve bought new clothes in almost 6 years, when my first child was born. Astonishing, isn’t it!
And now I have these wonderful photos that I will have forever and the hardest part is going to limit myself to hanging just a select FEW on the wall. I think this is going to be a wonderful reminder when I see them everyday that I am 41, and instead of looking at the wedding portraits and thinking Well this is as good as it gets, I’ll look at my recent portraits and think The best is yet to come! And how amazing that my children will always have these photos of me.