When was the last time you had a beautiful, professional portrait taken of yourself? For me, that event was 15 years ago! 15 years! My parents, my gran, do not have a recent, decent (ie: approved by me!) photograph of me since I was 17 years old! I’m now 32 and the “best years of my life” – my 20s – flew by largely unrecorded as I was not prepared to step in front of a camera. So I made the point of always ensuring I was behind the lens and not in front of it (That could possibly account for the reason I am now a photographer)….
Does that story ring true for anyone else?
If, like me, you realise that a whole decade of your life does not exist, even in the digital archives of your family history, get out there and do something about it!! I did.
I went to Deb Smith Photography and booked my very own photo-shoot – before I could talk myself out of it.
Then the doubts hit. I had deep and (at times painful) conversations with myself:
“I have nothing to wear. Nothing fits me anymore!”
“I don’t have enough money to spend on new clothes…”
“I’m fat. I’ll wait until I’ve lost the 15kgs I’ve put on in recent years….”
“I’ll look ridiculous!”
“There is a very good reason I always make sure I am behind the camera these days and not in front of it…..”
“I’ll call Deb and cancel. I can’t do this!!”
And then the day of the shoot arrived, and it was too late for any excuses now! ….
And it was such an Amazing Experience!
My hair and makeup were professionally styled and Deb posed me in ways that flattered my body shape and I actually started to feel beautiful again – despite the extra 15kgs, despite the old clothes (I did buy 1 new dress for the shoot) and despite the sometimes rather awkward poses I was asked to hold. I felt beautiful within my own skin, and that self- confidence, no matter how recently obtained, was inspiring and tangible.
I almost didn’t need to see the final results, because that personal belief and self-appreciation held fast in my mind while I waited for the images to be ready. That lasting buzz, finding that self-love is empowering! It is amazing how much it changes your perception of yourself and how you see others.